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I am back from kl!! I reached singapore yesterday night. I had such a fabulous time at kl with the babez and the 2 dudes. I will update soon on my trip to kl.
So, have a great week ahead lovelies! :)
So I did met up with him yesterday. But I am not going to say much. Things did not went well initially. But as usual, we do make it up after that. I love the moments when we were at changi beach late at night, only me and you.
2 more days, and I am gone. Haha. I will be leaving for KL on the national day morning. Ya I know. I am not a patriotic. But I need a getaway. At last, I will be going for a short break after for so long. I am sure I will be enjoying myself with the babes. I cant wait. ;)
Nothing much to say.
So gd nitez everyone! :)
As expected, today's plan did not work out. And i got too emotional and started to scold him. I know it was not his fault. He did not do it on purpose. He was too tired after his night shift that he overslept and woke up only after 2pm. And we are supposed to meet up at 1.
I do not know what has got over me. I started to cry. I got so emotional. I couldnt control myself. I cried endlessly as if I lost someone. I do not know why I am not so understanding these few days. I started to spurt out all those words that I am not supposed to say it out. And all because of my damn mouth, he almost wanted to let me go for my happiness. He thought I am not happy wit him. He cant bear hearing me cry. I wailed out loud when he told me to think it over. But I am not going to. I do not want to leave him. I do not want him to leave me. I cant bear without him in my life. He has already became part of my life.
I am really sorry for what has happened this afternoon. It was not your fault. It was my fault. I should be more understanding about your work. I know you are working hard for our future. But money does not matter to me. All I want is just to spend a little more time with you. I have been longing for that from you. We have not been dating for such a long time. And I really miss it so much.
And I know you have been wanting to go out with me too. But time does not allow us. Both of us are totally busy. And I am anticipating so much for our movie date tomorrow after work. I am counting the hours to meet you tomorrow.
And dear, no matter what happened, I am not going to let you go. Only HIM can separate us. But InsyaALLAH, with our doas everyday, we will go through all the ups and down together till we are officially husband and wife. Insyaallah.
Prior to previous entry, I am okay now. I have been good eventhough at times, I just felt like
crying out loud. At some point in time, I will feel so lonely and my heart felt so empty. And at that point in time, so many negative things started to play in my mind. And sometimes, this will
led me feeling so depressed.
And all this happened because I miss him so much. We have not been spending so much time together. Both of us have been super busy with our own worklife. I guess what people say is true. There are so many obstacles during engagement period.
We can be quarelling non-stop everyday without fail even though it was just a small matter. But
I know we are strong enough to go through this. We will never give up right B?
I really hope our plan will work out tomorrow. I cant stand it if we kept postponing our meet up.
I really need you badly. :(
